This going to be a short post, I don't really have much to say, just thought I would update the blog. Things have been really weird lately, I don't know if it's just because I'm getting older or what, but I don't look at things the same way anymore. I'm a bit more somber about life, a little more introspective, just really trying to get a grasp of all the things that have happened to me over the years, and how they have made me into the person I am today. I also question whether or not I like this new person...Maybe it's just my brain being overactive, or me thinking too much about things, I just have this overwhelming feeling that I need to get away from things. I need to step back, and pull myself away from all of this for a while and get my head on straight. A lot of my thoughts have been going over to all of my friends that are over in Iraq, and all the young men and women serving over there, and yet at the same time I feel like that's where I need to be, being someone that can take care of those kids so they can come home to their families and friends. I know that I have family and friends of my own, but lately it doesn't seem to matter that much to me, I care more for others than I do for myself. Don't worry, I'm not suicidal or anti-social, it's just how I have been feeling. I guess it stems from a feeling that I'm where I should be for the moment, so there's no need to worry for myself for the time being, so my feelings travel to other mediums. It's all really just confusing shit, especially for the one having to go through it, but whatever, life goes on. I'm also worried about how my future is going to play out. College is quickly coming to an end, and I really have no idea what I want to do with my life yet. I have options, but not one really stands out as the best, and it's rough because all my life I've been presented with options and always known the right road to take, and here I stand at a crossroads scratching my head and not knowing which way to go... I guess I'm tired of the head games, I'm tired of the bullshit, and I just want to be somewhere where things make sense, and right now, they don't, and it's really pissing me off. Almost to the point where I just want to be back on my own, with no one around, and just myself to depend on rather than some people that may say their your friends until something comes down the pike where they feel they can't be your friends, or if something happens, they still want you to be friends with them even when they know you can't trust them anymore. This is not about anyone specifically, but just how my track record has gone over the last decade or so. I know I may be young year-wise compared to a lot of people, but I have seen things, and done things that people my age should never have to go through or do; like my dad always said, it's not the years, it's the mileage.