Well, here again I find myself at the end of another semester, and a long while since I last updated, but then again, not like many people read it, but it is an important outlet for me whether or not most of the stories here are true or not. But about 90% are true, some of the details have been changed to reflect emotion rather than actual events and what not, but fuck all that.
This past weekend was Grand Prix here at Purdon't. It was an interesting experience for myself because this is the first year where I've actually been able to participate in the week-long events. I was in engineering the previous two years and during that week there are always exams, papers, technical reports, labs...the list goes on. So by the time the weekend comes around, you just really want to sleep rather than party. However now being in political science, I was able to enjoy myself completely. The typical breakdown was a week long bender, and while many of the nights were either blacked-out or just a haze, it was a great time. The biggest thing was breakfast club on Saturday morning. After starting my bender at 2 on Friday afternoon, I drank straight through until about 6 in the morning on Saturday. I then got a quick 2 hour nap, got dressed in my white trash/redneck getup and proceeded to continue to drink myself into oblivion. And then after another afternoon nap, I drank again Saturday night and used all of Sunday as a recovery day. For those of you not in the know, Grand Prix is essentially a big go-kart race that they have every year. It's been going on since the 50's, and is a big highlight of college life every year. The more important part is that there are festivities going on all week and is just one big campus party. There's someone to do and places to see every night of the week. Breakfast club is something else though. During the fall Purdue has breakfast club every morning of home football games, and once on the Saturday of the Grand Prix race. Breakfast club is where the bars on campus open at 7 in the morning, and people wear the craziest shit out the bars to booze and sing along to shitty 80's music. It's quite the experience and recommend it to anyone because it is a Purdue only thing, there is no other campus in the country that has it.
In other news, I'm now seriously starting to contemplate my future after graduation. And I've pretty much narrowed it down to several options. Option number one is law school. Should I choose law school, I'm thinking about maybe Arizona State, or Duke, or even Florida International, mainly for their joint JD/MBA degrees, which would cost some money and take some time, but the payoff at the end would be worth it with a great job and a hell of a lot of money. The other options are either trying to get back into the Air Force and get a pilot slot which was my original plan after high school, and why I went to the Air Force Academy in the first place. If not the Air Force, then maybe the Army. What to do in the Army I'm not sure, but I know that I would want to go overseas and do my best to make the young guys come home to their family. I'm older, and it wouldn't be a big deal for me, I just have more concern for the young guys and their families. And if that doesn't happen, then I could always try for the Air Force or Army and go into the JAG program and become a lawyer in the military. I'm just not sure yet, all I know is that I want to be part of something bigger than myself, and one day have enough money to never have to worry about it again.
Now on the romantic front...there really isn't one haha. It's not that I've been striking out, it's just that I don't try. With all of my past fuck ups, I just don't feel the need to be involved right now. Sure it would be nice, but girls cost money and that's something I'm short on right now. That and it's just too much of a hassle. They always ask too many questions, over analyze everything, and are just generally a pain in the ass. Don't get me wrong, I love women, I just think that at this particular time in my life I need to have fun with them, and that's about it. Is that an asshole comment? Maybe, or maybe it's the fact that I'm tired of finding someone that might be relationship worthy and then getting fucked over because they can't make up their damn mind, or they get pissed because their not in my long term plans right now. I feel that it's important to get my life set and on track before I bring someone into it, it's just not fair to the other person if you can't support them in every way possible, and for me it's just not possible right now. I could be a big support, but what girls really need and want, I just can't provide. I guess I just need to find myself someone that is low maintenance and laid back about things, but fat chance of finding that here in the midwest, where every girl is looking for the long term thing and kids, and a house, blah blah blah. Or you find the girls that think the "older" guys are the ones they need to be going out with because "they really know how to treat a woman." Now let me explain why this idea pisses me off. First off, in any sense of the words man or woman, a person needs to have a great amount of life experience. And not just going through trials and tribulations, but truly understanding what it means to be called those things. For a woman, going through life and having a family and everything that goes along with that makes her a woman. For a man, seeing all the horrors that the world has to offer, and experiencing the joys of having a family truly makes a man. So in this sense, it takes quite some time for a person to become a man or woman. I've seen friends die in my arms, family die, and been party to many a horrible thing. However, I don't know the joy that my father knows of having a family and being successful, and riding with the ups and downs that all that has to offer, so in my opinion, I still am not a man, as are many of my generation, the same goes for the females of my generation. Suffice it to say that girls who have this idea that men older than them are better prepared is not necessarily true, and a moot point. Hell, I have to admit, if I was 30, of course I would be going with younger girls simply because women at that point are completely different than they are at the ages of 21-27 or so. But these are just my thoughts and opinions, and I'm damn sure that many females would not agree with me, but guys would. Anyways, the whole thing is just bullshit. People just need to be honest with themselves, and be who they are, and let the chips fall where they may rather than look to change things too much.
Oh well, it's the end of the semester, and time to shut myself in the apartment and study like a madman to get my grades up for finals.