So, here's another attempt to try and keep up with things in this blog, not that it's anything popular and has a lot of readers, but we'll see what happens. I've had this blog since the fall of 2003 and so many different things have happened since that time. I've seen three relationships come and go, changed majors, seen friends come and go, and yet I'm still here. I hope one day I understand the reason why I've gone through as much as I have in this short time. A man of my age should not have had to live as much as I have in these past years. But I guess it's all "character building" or some shit like that. If this is character building, I want to have none of it. But then again, some of it was worthwhile. Which parts I'm not exactly sure yet, but some of it was fun. I'm just ready to get this part of my life over with.
I know, I've talked about how much I've enjoyed my time here at Purdue, and I have, but it's time to move on. I can't keep spinning my wheels and getting nowhere. It's time to get my life on track and make a difference, however large or small it may be.
One day I would eventually like to start a family, but I don't see it starting anytime soon. That's really only because I'm so damn picky about who I date that it's going to take an extraordinary girl to finally tie me down. I've made my mistakes in the past, but I've also had relationships with some really good girls, but something always happened and it wasn't meant to be. I figure that's the way it was supposed to be. If it didn't work out, then it was fate. But those were good things, because it allowed me to see what I do want, and what I don't, in an eventual mate for myself. It's also allowed me to look at myself and see what my faults and weaknesses are and work on them. So all in all it wasn't wasted time, it just seemed like it until you take the time to step back and view it with an unbiased opinion.
Granted I know it sounds like I'm rambling, and I probably am, but fuck it, this is my blog and I can write whatever the hell I want. SO there asshole! Just kidding, but I just need to get some personal shit off my chest every now and then, and this is one of the best places to do it. Some people know me, and that I write on this, and others have no idea, so it's nice to have a certain measure of anonimity, allowing me to write and communicate my ideas, whether they're read or not. So I think on that note I'll end here, with a quote from Abraham Lincoln, the day after he woke up with a hangover and wrote the Emancipation Proclamation. "I freed who?!"

Well, so much for trying to keep up with current things on this blog. It doesn't help when your hard drive to your computer decides to take a shit on you without warning. Oh yeah, real fucking fun when you're thinking to yourself, "OK, I have 6 years of important info on this hard drive, is there any way I can get it back?" Turns out there is, but you have to pay over $600 dollars for it, and that's not even a guarantee. What kind of horseshit is this? So I'm gonna hope that I friend of mines' dad can do something for me, otherwise I'm pretty well fucked. I gotta tell you, this shit has really put a wrench in the works. If I didn't need a computer at my place it wouldn't be a big deal, but I do. And it's a pain in the ass to walk 10 minutes across campus just to check my email and hopefully do some work, so that I have to schedule my life around the open lab hours. Fucking stupid computers, sometimes I wish we were still using typewriters.
What else is going on...oh it was funny, the other night a girl asked me why I wasn't in a relationship. I told her it's because that unless a girl is special, I can't stand her more than a couple months if I'm dating her. If I'm not dating, then well there are plenty of special circumstances. She said that was a shame and that I was a really nice guy and seemed like I had a lot to offer. That's a nice compliment, but I knew that even though this girl was attractive, if I would've said anything past our conversation, it would've gone nowhere. I'm talking about asking out here you slow-assed morons. When a girl gives you a compliment like that, she's just polishing your ego, and probably has some like for you, but in that friend/brother way. What she doesn't tell you is that she really likes to date the guys that treat her like shit and beat her, she considers them a challenge, and wants to try to change them, the problem is that she really does want the nice guy, but she doesn't figure that out until she's married with about three kids and her alcoholic husband comes home from banging her best friend and beats her with a socket wrench and then goes after the kids with the drill shouting, "If you thought what I did to your mother was bad, wait until I screw you over!" You see, no one thinks of these things far enough ahead in advance, and it leads to nothing but shitty and unhappy people. So listen to me girls, both the good ones and the shallow "pretty" bitches that are as dumb as a box of rocks: The nice guys are worth it, give them the chance and they will show you a thing or two, and you will be much happier, rather than going for the quick fix. Believe me on this, I've been through enough relationships to know what the fuck I'm talking about.