Yeah, so seriously, what the fuck was I thinking with starting a blog? I mean, here I am, over four years since I put the first post up, and the only comments I've gotten were from friends, bots trying to spam me, or ex-girlfriends that didn't appreciate the fond memories I had of them and the times we had together (read: sarcastic as hell). I guess it was originally started as a way to vent, but over time it grew into something that allowed me to express myself in writing--some way to get all the random shit spinning about in my head down and paper and make sense of everything that was, and is, going on at the time. But lately, well I just haven't had the motivation to keep this up. I guess there would me more interest on my behalf if I knew people were reading and enjoying, or at the very least some of the things I said/did was of some help or inspired someone, but I guess that's a bit of a reach with a personal blog such as this. So, what really is there to say now that we're on the eve of yet another Thanksgiving (my 26th on this planet) and yet I am still living on my own, in my own apartment in Lafayette, yet I still don't have a decent job to support my living, therefore my parents are having to pay some of my bills...not to mention the fact that I'm still going to try for law school next fall...I just really don't fucking know anymore where the hell this is all going...

Well, it's definitely been quite a while since I last posted anything on this blog. A year brings a whole bunch of different things to the plate, and a lot of changes to life. My father recently went through both a bypass and pacemaker surgery, which was a little worrisome to me. Granted, he had good doctors and he's pulled through wonderfully, it just reminded me how fragile life really is. You know, I've been around death quite a lot in the last few years, seeing family and friends passing on, and I have to admit that I got quite numb to the whole thing. However, seeing my own father go through these things really hit home how close he is to me, and how I should really change my thinking on the subject, mainly because I don't really know what I'd do if I didn't have him around. On a happier note, I've finally graduated from Purdue. Took quite a long time, but it finally happened, and honestly, I don't know what to do now. I had planned on going to law school this fall, but that didn't quite pan out, mainly because with all the things going on, I unfortunately got many of my applications in a little too late. But you know, maybe that's for the better because I don't know if I was really ready for a commitment like that. Law school is not easy, and I'm not exactly in the best frame of mind for that at this moment. So, it looks like I'll be taking a year off from school, and try again next fall with a fresh mind and more motivation about the whole situation. Still don't have a girlfriend, but you know what, that's really for the best because there's no one around here that would be worth my time, much less anyone that I would be able to tolerate for a long time. That's not to say that I haven't been having a blast with the wrong girls; it has been a good time, and interesting to say the least...but I'll save those details for later. For now, I just needed to update some things, and really get these things off my chest.